Clearly Unclear Place > Trust Mentors’ Inspiring Words

Deepak Chopra

Deepak Chopra I am here to serve, inspire and live my truth.

I have come to a place where I am indeed stuck, hence the title, clearly unclear. I had catapulted myself, with ease actually, out of Pennsylvania, with several hours of creating a profile and investigating a work-exchange site, specifically a WWOOF position. The host needed someone immediately, and then I miraculously found an automobile to transport across the country, that also was so urgent, that the owners tossed in an extra 100 dollars to entice someone to drive it. So I reduced what I’d take with me to two bags and was off. It was with ease that I also found my way back from the west coast destination for the automobile, back to my host in rural Arizona. I would make it work, the idea was to be isolated with electricity and internet access, to complete my eBook and start composing music again, while writing my blogs. It was a choice just beyond homelessness, and closest to an artist residency. And then I learned that I was the only worker there, that unlike other work-exchange operations, that this was not 5 hours a day, 5 days a week, but every day, and pretty soon I discovered that there was way more work to do than could be easily snipped off at a 5 hour point. Then personality differences ensued. After delicately communicating expectations against the reality and letting reproachful comments slide, one morning the tension fractured, and I was asked to leave immediately. I had just enough time to wash the alfalfa hay and dust out of my hair and pack. When I had the audacity to finally make a statement about the current situation and express my own opinion while being driven from the remote farm to the next town, the tires screeched to a halt and I scrambled to make sure that I could get my valuables, now three bags, out of the vehicle before it sped away.

Eckhart Tolle, Life, experience necessary

Eckhart Tolle Life will give you the experience necessary

I felt more of a sense of relief, than panic. I had been maintaining a meditation practice and had scooped out a bit more time through my own demands to at least do a little bit of my own work in between sleeping and working on the ranch. The animals I loved, the people were angry and overworked. I still remained calm as I stood on this dusty road in the middle of nowhere hitchhiking. A woman of the church finally stopped, she brought me to a place where I was able to approach a man sitting with his iPhone and laptop, to ask if it would be possible for me to poach some of his internet waves in order to send a message to my cousin, who I was pretty sure lived in Phoenix.

Charles Eisenstein, Interbeings

Charles Eisenstein We are Interbeings Anything happening in the world happens to us

It turned out that in the very small allotted time that I sat there with WiFi through this guy whom I had some nice conversation with, that my cousin had returned my email with his contact information. I figured I’d start hitching to Phoenix, and discovered that my cousin lives in Tucson, the other direction. I found rides to take me there also effortlessly.
Charles Eisenstein, Trust Intuition, guided by Love

Charles Eisenstein Trust you Intuition be guided by Love

I have been here a little over a week. I have not had a clue of where to go. I have never warmed up to Los Angeles. I like to discover a city through having the option to walk around narrow streets and bicycle. I like to be in a place where I don’t HAVE to have a car, but can easily find the local ultimate frisbee pickup games, tennis courts, having a place to swim nearby is also lovely…and being among people who are artists and musicians with full hearts and open minds.
Wayne Dyer, karma

Wayne Dyer How you react is your karma

Suddenly it occurred to me that Tucson is this progressive place, particularly since it has a university, that is like an oasis in the desert of massive business chain entities that line several of the wide 4 lane highway streets that cut through the city. You know, the massive chains that are everywhere in the United States, as soon as you get out of the ‘old town’ or central quaint neighborhoods, you are confronted with these massive familiar businesses that are like flavors of ice cream, their brand names are so familiar to everyone.
Carlos Castaneda, Perception Changes

Carlos Castaneda Your Perception Changes

So I decided, yes, I’ll look for work here, and housing, and then I had an experience one day that said, no, this is not what I want. And then I had another day that gently encouraged me to go with this new plan – do the duty, pay the price – and then the following day I was again feeling discouragement. As I communicated in a letter yesterday, perhaps I shouldn’t have come across and listened to, most of my adult life, the words and messages of Carl Jung, Carlos Castaneda, Joseph Campbell, Martin Luther King, Mahatma Gandhi, the Dalai Lama, Eckhart Tolle, Deepak Chopra, Charles Eisenstein, Wayne Dyer…

i.e. Tolle “Awakening to your Life’s Purpose”, Campbell “Follow your Bliss”, Jung “synchronicity” “Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.”, Chopra ‘I am the creator of my best life”, Castaneda ‘the teachings of the shaman Don Juan”, Charles Eisenstein “We are all here to contribute our gifts toward something greater than ourselves, and will never be content unless we are.”

Carlos Castaneda, path with Heart

Carlos Castaneda Does the path have a Heart

And in my confusion, I’m delighted to have opened up this to read today.

“If we are stuck and do not choose to visit the empty place, eventually we will end up there anyway. You may be familiar with this process on a personal level. The old world falls apart, but the new has not emerged. Everything that once seemed permanent and real is revealed as a kind of hallucination. You don’t know what to think, what to do; you don’t know what anything means anymore. The life trajectory you had plotted out seems absurd, and you can’t imagine another one. Everything is uncertain. Your time frame shrinks from years to this month, this week, today, maybe even to the present moment. Without the mirages of order that once seemed to protect you and filter reality, you feel naked and vulnerable, but also a kind of freedom. Possibilities that didn’t even exist in the old story lie before you, even if you have no idea how to get there. The challenge in our culture is to allow yourself to be in that space, to trust that the next story will emerge when the time in between has ended, and that you will recognize it. Our culture wants us to move on, to do. The old story we leave behind, which is usually part of the consensus Story of the People, releases us with great reluctance. So please, if you are in the sacred space between stories, allow yourself to be there. It is frightening to lose the old structures of security, but you will find that even as you might lose things that were unthinkable to lose, you will be okay. There is a kind of grace that protects us in the space between stories. It is not that you won’t lose your marriage, your money, your job, or your health. In fact, it is very likely that you will lose one of these things. It is that you will discover that even having lost that, you are still okay. You will find yourself in closer contact to something much more precious, something that fires cannot burn and thieves cannot steal, something that no one can take and cannot be lost. We might lose sight of it sometimes, but it is always there waiting for us. This is the resting place we return to when the old story falls apart. Clear of its fog, we can now receive a true vision of the next world, the next story, the next phase of life. From the marriage of this vision and this emptiness, a great power is born.”

Alas, as I take in information with my brain and heart, and also stop and allow new messages to come in, I must trust that I’ll find my way.

Charles Eisenstein, organic intelligence, answer will find you.

Charles Eisenstein message to his Self of the Past The organic intelligence will become visible, the answer will find you.

Dalai Lama, War, military establishments greatest source of violence

Dalai Lama War and military establishments the greatest source of violence in the world.

I’m still looking for that artist residency and community….

Carol Keiter, blogger

Carol Keiter the blogger

| Happy Winter Solstice 12.21.2010 | ‘Attention’ breaking patterns | Eckhart Tolle’s concept of the Pain Body |

Happy Winter Solstice, ahh the daylight will begin increasing! and happy viewing of the Lunar Eclipse, to those of you who will be able to see it from your place on the planet.

I’ve had to deal recently with some of my own negative thinking ‘habits’, produced by honing into unpleasant i.e. negative thoughts, that just seem to start snow-balling. And so, I just read a few articles that are parallel in their insights into how a person can begin to grasp if they’re beginning to enter the rabbit hole of a negative loop, take responsibility by realizing that it is merely a thought process and learned habit which can be broken, and then allowing your conscious awareness of the process, to break the loop so that you can re-write the script. I decided to share these concepts with any of you who may at times get stuck in a similar ‘downward loop’ of thinking.

These links are about breaking thought patterns, that a person can tend to hold onto, and get stuck in.

The first step is to acknowledge that this is a thought that you are repeating, which you can change. Then to establish ways of re-writing the script and dissipating the thought pattern – ultimately by not giving it any of the energy of your “attention”.

Attention and presence are the significant cues here, to align to.

Actually, to this point, I was just reading some articles in the UTNE READER MARCH-APRIL 2010 issue, about ‘attention’, A Nation Distracted.

One of of the articles in this particular issue had some comments on attention, which resonates with me, though this mention of attention – describing one’s experience as the culmination of all of the different things that you have ‘paid attention to’ – is an echo of the concept of ‘attending’ to something, in terms of being consciously aware and present in the now.

“The Focused Life” excerpts from Winifred Gallagher’s book ‘Rapt’…saying that if you look back into your life, you see that your life – “reality” – has been fashioned through what you’ve paid attention to. That if you’d paid attention to other things, your life would be very different. Attention has created the experience and the ‘self’ stored in your memory; looking ahead, what you focus on will create the life and person yet to be.”

I say, that ‘attention’ is beyond thinking, it is conscious awareness, because I’ve moved fluidly through certain actions and experiences, in which I absolutely was not ‘directing’ the process through thinking, because it would have been too limiting. As Sri Chinmoy states in his talks on thought, from the viewpoint of the concept of having a ‘soul’, says that “though each thought can carry a specific weight in your mind, and has its’ own special signification,”…that “the human mind feels that thought is the ultimate power and light, but this is a deplorable mistake, because only by silencing the mind can one receive this message from the absolute Supreme”.

Well, now I’m finding myself skeptical about this too, and have to tread lightly between the lines to extract what information makes more sense to me, in terms of describing the human condition of the brain/body/universe connection – as it relates to the different conscious states from thought to awareness, in which one can dream an idea into existence by imbuing it with the power of the thought, or side-stepping the thought and observing it, and merely being present, attending to just what you are doing, without taking the slower and more cumbersome route of ‘thinking’ about what you’re doing.

I.e. the time that I played tennis with my friend. Both of us have already navigated the game, learned about the strokes, pace…We each started out slowly, gathering confidence after we practiced hitting the ball back and forth. There came a point, that we each were hitting really well; solid, fast-paced defined strokes back and forth. We talked about this phase that we got into later, in which neither of us were ‘thinking’ about what we were doing. It was way beyond dissecting the motion into parts to formulate the next move, but more of a complete zoning out | into complete attention. I’ve heard the same to be true if someone tries to work out a problem or digest information, that you can grasp a concept more quickly, if you take in and digest more of the matter more comprehensively, without getting stuck on little details that mitigate your ability to ‘grasp’ the whole subject. I’m sorry, but i can’t help but slip this into the wordplay, the concept in the “Star Wars” movie of ‘using the force’.

This link describes Eckhart Tolle’s concept of the ‘pain body’, which is like a living organism of energy, coagulated painful thought memories that are bound up into a kinduv ethereal body. Well, even the concept is a bit ethereal…but makes sense nonetheless.

Eckhart Tolle is basically stating that we have emotion imprints buried within our bodies from childhood, and even more far reaching than that, intertwining with biological DNA ‘memories’ if you will, which form a kind of physical energy aura, circulating around your physical body.

He says that this pain body is an organism that wants to survive, like any other organism, and it feeds on your own negative thinking patterns:

And that every time that certain negative; i.e. distressing, anxious, jealous, fearful….thoughts come up that a person starts to loop, that this energy just helps to magnify and bolster up the pain body.

However, if a person simply acknowledges these thoughts, as what they are, ‘thoughts’ that you are holding onto and repeating, that by your awareness of it, becoming the observer and not attaching to the thoughts and believing that “these thoughts are me”, that you then give this energy nothing to feed on, and it dissipates its’ strength.


“The pain body feeds on your thoughts … it gobbles up the Energy of every destructive or negative thought, it ‘eats it up’, so to speak.

…So the pain body doesn’t want you to observe it directly and see it for what it is. The moment you observe, feel its energy field within you, and take your attention into it, the identification is broken. A higher dimension of consciousness has come in. I call it presence.

Unconsciousness creates it; consciousness transmutes it into itself…..

Awareness of the pain-body is important. through cultivating awareness and presence, when the pain-body lashes out, you can recognize it more easily. You can see it. Now you can be aware that this is not who you are, but you feeding into it becoming active. The greatest agent for change is awareness, as Eckhart says.

“This too shall pass.” When you are cultivating presence and a sense of awareness, you will be able to have a quicker recovery from an active pain-body. You will be able to know this active state of the pain-body shall pass.”

| I frankly have trouble with the concept of the ‘pain body’, because it sounds to me like the very concept is trying to throw the responsibility to something ‘outside of yourself’. Yet the idea of recognizing that you can opt to step outside of a process of thought which is feeding into negative energy, by becoming aware of it to the point of breaking its’ flow and dissipating it, does make sense. |

back to Eckhart’s words:

When it passes, you go back to generating presence, to practices that help you cultivate presence so the next time the pain-body becomes active you can have a greater degree of awareness around the experience, without letting it consume you.

Presence power that you cultivate actually breaks up the strength of the pain-body itself.”

Though this second article is regarding the subject of ‘jealous thoughts’, the concept of changing a thought pattern is nevertheless the same, regardless of what loop you happen to be stuck in.

and excerpts from this article on jealousy

If a person has thoughts, such as: I can’t do this, no one will ever hire me, I will never get out of this situation…

then you can use the same exercise, of first

acknowledging the thoughts coming up, “oh shit, i’m doing it again”.

then go to a quiet place, get grounded, listen to your breathing, feel how your body has been reacting to these obsessive negative thoughts, and acknowledge what the thoughts are, then recognize that they are merely how you are interpreting the situation, and that the thoughts are a habitual process, that can be broken. and if you then re-direct the thoughts to thinking about when in the past you have had a lot of success with your work/projects/livelihood and when you can imagine this to be something that will occur again in the future, or what you could do to initiate something towards manifesting your talents… in this direction, then you are already stepping into a more empowered place, because you’re not just telling yourself only the same repeated, negative viewpoint.


“Jealous thoughts are a habit, that can be changed.

“3 minute jealous thought stopper”

• sit – sit in a quiet area, bathroom, whatever
• settle – close eyes, deep breaths, get grounded, feel yourself slowing down your breathing and breathing deeper
• awareness – come into awareness of your jealous thoughts at the moment, what exactly are you thinking, say it to yourself
• ask – ask yourself if you know your jealous thoughts to be true, absolutely true. what evidence do you have to support these thoughts? whether you think your thoughts are true or not true, bring your attention to yourself; hear and gut & feel the sensations in your body. what are you feeling in your body? is there tightness, a big knot, emptiness, heaviness?
• allow – allow your sensations to be there without judging them and breath into that part of the body. if you feel heavy in your heart area, breathe into that heaviness until the sensation softens. if you feel a knot in your gut, breathe into that know until it starts to loosen.
• replace – replace that jealous movie running in your head with one that is more in alignment with what you want in your life – because the reality is that both outcomes are possible!

if you know that your jealous thoughts aren’t true but see yourself being cheated on or your partner leaving you anyway, replace that movie with a favorite memory from the past with your partner or special moments between the two of you that are happening in the present or could happen in the future.

• running a different movie in your mind when jealous thoughts come up is a scientifically proven fact, your brain cannot tell the difference between seeing something that’s real and seeing something that you only imagine in your mind’s eye.

your body reacts to things in your imagination.

when you imagine your partner wanting to be with someone else…you are running and re-running that movie until it becomes very real to you.

jealousy is a habit, and it’s a habit that can be broken.

for 21 days, every time that your jealous thoughts come up, do this technique and you won’t believe how much ease you will begin to feel.

if it happens to be that your jealous thoughts ARE true, and cheating is really going on, then instead of your new movie being a favorite memory, see yourself taking the next step in an empowered way instead of continuing your jealous cycle.”

abbbadddeee abbbadddeee abbbadddeee that’s all folks!
happy solstice!